... friendzone ...

Dulukan aku ada kawan lelaki. Kawan baik okay. And he is nice. Eh! Ni masa zaman form 1 and 2 lah. Then bile masuk form 3, he said 'i like you.' And i just run away. Im so scared. Becoz we were in high school. And i dont really like him but i want he to be my best buddy. Itu satu. After form 5, aku kawan baik dengan my ex bestfriend. And we become friends. I like him becoz dia baik sangat sangat. He is really a great guy. Anak orang berada. Apa ada pada rupa kan? Haha. Kalo tak silap 3 kali die luahkan hati but i reject him. But when i want to choose him as my husben. I feel like something wrong with my feeling. I dont know why. That is why i choose some guy who is a stranger in my life. Yes. He is my stranger even he is my fiancee. Becoz we still not yet become husben and wife. Once the ijab kabul begin and all witnessess say "sah". then he is not my stranger anymore. for me, he still my stranger becoz i dont know what is he favourite colour. is that so bad? or not? i wanna to be like couple after marriage. holding hands. hugging. and kissing. haha! in islam, the best couple is after marriage. that is i wanna do. fall in love after marriage with a stranger. haha! but the stranger that i love. i do love my stranger a.k.a my mr coffee. ^___^ my stranger is the best thing i ever have. for the moment. haha! and i will never regret to choose him but i will regret to lose him. TTFN! Sent from Yahoo! Mail on Android

... oh abg jpj lcct ...

Last saturday (18 jan 2014), aku g amik kawan kat lcct. While waiting her aku park jauh ckit. Yela. Malas nak g semak dekat sana. Then after half an hour waiting, my friend call.me and she said she already touchdown. So i drove her car and reach her at line 'ketibaan'. While waiting her walk to car, suddenly abg jpj naik motor yang kawal lalu lintas tego aku. Abg jpj "dek, lama lagi ke?" Ak tengok and soo cuak. What the hell. Aku bls "tak tak. Tuh member otw dah." Abg jpj " muka adik cam penah tgk la." Aku blas "err. Tak pnh tgk pon." Abg jpj "adik dok mne?" Aku balas "t.p.g" Abg jpj "tapi cam.penah tengok la. Cm pnh nampak" Dlm ht ak, ahh! Sudah. Mamat ni knp. Aku balas "maybe pelanduk 2 serupa." Then my friends masuk kerete and his last word. "Mungkin." Wth!! What wrong with that guy. Nasib bail.lah encem. Siap patah blik tgk ak. Hahaha! Encemmm To abg jpj yg encem... sori..kte xde jodoh. I sudah ada tunang yang jauh lebeh kacak and he is my stranger. I do love him even i dont know what his fav colour Hahaha! Ttfn! Sent from Yahoo! Mail on Android

... sister in law to-be ...

bukan senangkan nak menjadi kakak ipar? how u do it?

dulukan aku pernah mencuba. tapi ditolak sebelum mendaki.

dibenci. dicaci.
hati siapa yang tak terluka?

jika awak awak sekalian pernah dibenci sebelum menjadi ipar. lepas anda kahwin baru mereka suka.  do u have any solution? please tell me. share with me. help me!

i like to throw the past. i wanna do it.
but it keep pulled me back. and i wonder why i so scared?
scared of what? im scared that i might be step at the wrong path. i dont wanna be an annoyed person to them.

sebab tuh laa ak kalo didepan mereka aku men-invisible-kan diri. not becoz im rude. it just i dont to disturb ur happiness.

sound like aku main game cam "u dont disturb me so i dont disturb yours"..others person will said "kalo mati nanti guling sendiri ye."

i wish i could. aku ada sifat dimana aku tengah belajar berdikari. ignore my own fiancee. ignore my parents and friends.

do u have any book about this problem? please let me know. i dont know how to tell what i feeling. susah nak explain. maybe orang yang pernah kena dgn aku mesti faham kan. just want someone who know my situation help me. so i dont need to tell about my feeling a lot. i feel so SEMAK!!

but i try to win their heart. i try.