Friday, October 22, 2010

... saya tiada "couple" tapi ...

assalamualaikum...

wake up in the morning...and cari baju nk g keje..dan...termenung...
soklan: apekah yg aku pikirkan itu??
jwpn: about him...
soklan: sape 'him'..
jwpn: cinta..

almost a month kami tak dating..
(well some of u will say that: ishh!gtl nye minah nih nk date hari2..bg aku: well..ske ht aku la..)
back to the topik..
ok...untk pengatahuan ramai..
(xpenting pon utk korg tau..ahhaha)
aku x de couple2 nih..aishh..dlu ada la...couple 4thn then sedap2 die mntk putus...korg mesti ckp: WTH kn??haahha...bg aku...aku x kesah..dan tipu la kalo aku x menangiskan..nages woo...3mlm berturut2...tp kn...for what aku nk menangis krn org yg xlayak untuk aku...hahaha~
*xde kne mgne dgn topik..sori..*

back to the topik...
lepas putus bln 1 hari tuh..sume org smbut new year dgn hepi gilo babas la..tp aku sedeh giler babun..hahaa...but i'm hepi now..with some1..but...love him..make me suffer..more suffer than my ex...aku selalu penin ble aku pikir psl die..bnci btl...

da lme aku bercinta dgn die tanpa couple...die da byk kli ajk couple tp byk kli aku menolak dgn secara elok..bg aku..couple tuh x penting..yang penting kite ske sme ske..dan masing2 tahu kedudukan masing2...aku xnk la ikat org kn...aku lebeh suke berkawan pastuh kalo ada jodoh terus kwen...
*ayat cm artis..well..ada la angan2 nk jd artis..hahhaa~*

yee..da memg aku muktamad dgn keputusan aku...aku xnk couple2 lg dah..seksa ht nih..tp...bercinta skrg pon seksa gak kan..xde couple..tp..seksanye..huhu...

aku nak die merana spt mne aku merana...aku wat kptsn xnk contact selame 3hr..ahhhaa!lantak la...mulai hari ini dan smpai senin dpn..
tp...
soklan: adekah aku mampu?
jwpn: tah...

nmpk sgt aku nih x kuat kn...arrgghh!!damn!!!aku terlalu lemah dan aku rimas dgn dri aku ini!huhu...

da 3 mggu x date cm bese...miss all that..miss laugh..miss smile together..miss walk together...even my legs not to long..but he always want to walk same path with me...really2 miss him...
*i like crying*

this morning he call me...my heart said do not pick up..but deep in my heart...i miss his voice...and then i pick up the phone...i heard his voice..deep in my heart,i'm crying...but i'm to ego..very ego...i told him that dun ever call me again until next monday...he said that, he will call me tonight or tomorrow..arrgghh!!i hate him when he always make a choice..

lepas call tuh...i'm sat on my bed and i'm sad..i call my father to sent me to work and I am grateful because my father wanted to send me to go to work..kalo x htr, tah cmne la aku nk drive kn..dgn khayal nye...smlm nk blek je..almost nk kiss some1's car back..ahhaha...nsb la break mkn..kalo x..aku la kne mkn pasir..hahaah!

about ptg ni...hmmm..nmpk nye blek nek teksi atau bus...kalo ada bus lalu rmh aku..setahu aku xde..coz die bwk aku pusing 1 klang then tukar bus len lak..ahha..kul bpe smpai rmh??kul 11 mlm??hahaha!teksi??err??tgk poket...ada rm5...ahha..moo nt kne cekik..huhu...mkn pasir jela mggu dpn..hahahahha!

but until now! aku still dlm dilema..so damn!!knp la aku citer dlm nih ek..hahaa..xpe la..juz nk luah kn je..xtau cmne nk citer..dan pd siapa...

tp kn...


btl x???cinta x pnh silap..tp silap nye kite yg terlalu buta untuk mencari cinta...sbb kite ego, hipokrit and what so ever...

ok i admit...aku xde couple tp aku bercinta...dgn sape ek???ada 2 pilihan..tp slh 1 nye syg sgt2..hahaha!
*aku da giler*

btw, andai kite terluka waktu bercinta..jgn slh kn cinta..kerana cinta x berslh..jgn slhkn hati sbb ht hnye menurut...syukur la kite pndai bercinta dan jatuh hati...coz mse nk rse bnda tuh mle2 kan...betapa indah nye perasaan itu kn..membuat kite bhagia..hahaha!

xde slh kn sape2...sume nih takdir..dan kite boleh ubah takdir kite...dan aku pcye..sume ini terjadi ada sbb...  

p/s: tlg percaya pd cinta

mood: aku da giler..melalut cm org bodo...

nota: ini belog ak..so ske ht kaki aku la..


6 comments:

~cAhAyA kEmUL!aAn~ said...

3ari jer relax la nana..
ak pnah xcontact 3bln..
bak kte eita tegar gile la..
hahahahaha

☻UsaGi NaNa☻ said...

fadh...kalo diam seribu tuh xpe..nih kn esk2 msj wat cm smlm xde ape..

dlu ak dgn ex pnh ditgglkn snyp sunyi sepi selme 6 bln....selme 2 thn tuh pasti ada 6 bln senyap~

~cAhAyA kEmUL!aAn~ said...

akceli ak yg mnx..
no reason..
(ade la sbb nye tp bkn gaduh)..=)
klau contact sbb de hal mustahak pn..
gne ak kau jer..

☻UsaGi NaNa☻ said...

xde la merana sgt kn..ak kn siap topupkn rm10...tp 1 pon no using utk ak..sedeh tau

~cAhAyA kEmUL!aAn~ said...

xmerana ko kte..
hahaha
cme org yg dekat ak jer tau mcm mne keadaan ak tym 2..
so relax je k..
klau tym nie 3 ari pn xble than..
cne la nk than andai kte d uji ble kawen nnt kn??
n cinta xspatut nye melemah kn..
tp wt kte jdik kuat n lg bsemangat tuk hadapi hari esok.. =)

☻UsaGi NaNa☻ said...

ye gak...cinta seharusnya mencabar..hahaha!
aku memg cm nih..hr nih nages..esk pnjang akal..haahha!!

sush gak kn tgglkn org yg kite syg...waaa~